The beauty and grace of a woman,
   I look and I see serenity, she glows in the cool dim light.
Smoke gently laps at her smooth shoulders eager awaiting the next touch
A gentle smooth glide as she saunters her way
Grace from her blesses my day
I gaze upon this beauty stumbling for thought, as if her grace has eaten my words and left me mute
Babbling like a child I seem aloof brain and mouth just don’t connect I am a goofÂ
One should feel luck to see such beauty
This vision is driving me crazy, she passes by me and her scent eats my soul
Gliding as if her feet can’t touch the floorÂ
Off she goes I see her back , bare skin, soft and smooth, my hand reaches to touch
 I see something that catches my eye, tears start to form and I wonder why
A strange mark is placed on her skin, ink it seems has been placed within
A tattoo , it seem , she chose to acquire, no longer I gaze, no longer I admire
I am vexed you see why this would be, why mark and mare a work of art I’ll never see
My head it hangs in sham i feel some things in life just can’t be explained….
Not a Good Friend,
I am not a good friend, I know this. I will listen to you, I will help you. I will go out of my way for you, I will dry your tears. I will empower you, I will give you all the hope you need to move forward, and hold you up as you do so. I will pick you up when you fall, And I will help fix your pain when you rise.
What I won’t do is, talk down to you , I won’t discourage you, I won’t belittle you. I also won’t give you any of my woe and sorrow.
That last part is what makes me  a bad friend.
 I have learned that in order to be a good friend one needs to share with the other.  Talk and give of your emotional health to your friend. Share with them so they can see that you do have emotions and that you’re capable of being vulnerable. No one can do it all by themselves, believe me I have tried.Â
But for me it is very difficult to give that part of me out to just anyone, and for that I am truly sorry.  I do value you, I do respect you I think you’re amazing. You deserve better, But after a life of  let downs and disappointments , I have built a fence that can not be scaled. I simply refuse to let anyone in. Maybe one day I will open my gate and let the right person in , but until then I will to live in the dark and in an emotional void.
So I move forward in my quest to find myself and open my heart to let in or out the heart that so many are willing to give. Maybe if I can do that I will be able to actually live.
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